I had a dream

by Lena
(Latin America)

My story is not unique. I grew up in a family of good taste, with manners, but not necessarily elegant. I had never a role of elegance between the women of my family (which are not many) and I was, when younger, never interested in being a girl. I think I did not understand what it meant to be born a female. I believe I had these feelings because in my early youth I did not considered myself beautiful. I had overweight and bushy hair which I found so unattractive; I just felt make-up and high-heels were meant for femenine-looking girls and not for someone like me. I never really felt like a lady in this respect.

I am 21 years old now. Since I began university and came to know myself a little better, I realized who I wanted to become. I had this dream and always wrote it down in a little paper where I had all my prayers to God.

"God, please help me to be kind and gracious, elegant and with good taste and heart".

I have faith my prayers were heard, for now I am more a lady than I was then. Through my University life I came to know women with self-confidence that helped me gain my own, and also becoming healthier and slimmer brought me the motivation to try on new clothes.

Sometimes I had the feeling that I was a stranger in my family. I am conservative about love and relantionships, and I am fascinated by the world of Jane Austen and so many other romantic novels of the time. I am often told I look too mature for my age ad my own sister insists in how I dress as if I were older. At times, I feel like if I were.
But in spite of my interest in elegance, manners and poise, I came to realize how I failed to meet these features in my personality. I especially realized it when I started to date a man who I considered a gentleman and whose table manners where better than mine.

That is the moment when I found this website. Every article I read makes me realize how much I have to improve, from speech habits and posture, to my thoughts and feelings. I have been working hard since I was 15 years old to become a better persona of myself. I have faith I will achieve this goal, for I have already done some important improvements.

Hopefully, one day, I will marry a good man with a kind heart that values who I am and who I want to be and who has similar ideals as mine.

I can't thank the owner of this website enough for all her valuable advice.

And to all the girls who might not feel good-enought to become a lady, don't give up! You can be a lady and you deserve to be one too. One of the quotes that I value the most comes from one of my favorite movies of all times, "Little Princess". Sarah, the main character, insists on how "all girls are princesses, even if we were never told so". One just has to believe. Believe it!